boring day. stayed home de whole day doin nth but tinkin of her. hais. dunno y but juz kept tinkin bout her. does she noes?? i dunno but i noe she's neither missin me nor tinkin bout patchin up wif me. she has 4gtten bout me le. tml is 15Oct. how gd would tt b if we were still together?? i realli miss her alot. hais. y did it turn out lyk tis??? )))"=. problem after problem y m i facin so much problems?? de things i've said, i didnt mean it!! wen i said u were onli givin me excuses de other time, i realli didnt mean 2 say tt. y is dere no point 4 us 2 b together again?? cant u juz give me a second chance 2 prove myself 2 u?? cant i juz give u happiness?? i realli nid u. everyday i juz wished n prayed tt i can b wif u again. is tt realli juz so hard?? u loved me b4. y nt love me again givin us another chance?? everyday since 21Aug, i juz kept tinkin bout u. everyday i will juz keep tinkin bout u n missin u. blog post frm 11Sep onwards, almost all of de post, has u in it. do u noe how much u meant 2 me?? do u noe how much i realli loved u?? do u noe how much i wanna b wif u?? do u noe how sad i was bcuz i couldnt get 2 c u anymore?? do u noe how much it hurts 2 hear u sayin tt u 4gtten bout us long ago alreadi?? i feel so so so lonely. it wasnt easy 4 me 2 biao bai 2 u. it was so hard 4 me 2 tell u n ask u 2 b my girlfren. but y did it seem so easy 4 u 2 let go of me?? )))"=. i hate myself 4 changin in2 sum1 wif tis low self-esteem n confidence. wan 2 blame jiu blame me 4 nt being a gd boyfren. but i realli wan 2 amend it up 2 u. deres no doubt tt u're de 1 4 me, de 1 tt made me fall in love wif u so deeply, de 1 tt gave me a reason 2 live on. i realli wanna love u wif all my heart n juz happily b 2gether wif u baby. tt's all. )))"=. the moment tat u wander far frm me, i wanna feel u in my arms again. i believe in u. u noe de door 2 my very soul. u're de light in my deepest darkest hour. u're my saviour when i fall n u may not tink i care 4 u wen u noe down inside i really do.
