gt drunk on monday nite. drank all by myself at home. cried lyk hell kept tinkin about her n worryin bout de explaination. called xiang n he accompanied me finally i fell aslp at around 5 after vomiting. hais. 'O's results r out tml!! hais. im feeling so guilty n miserable nw. though deres no point, but i juz cant seem to stop feeling tis way. i miss her but i dun dare to actualli tell her how much i realli do. n oso i have no idea wad or how will she react after i've said tis. im such a idiot such a coward!! i dun dare tok to de person i love i dun! wads wrong wif me?? everything she comes online, i would onli open her conversation window but nothing will b said by me i always wanted to tok to her lyk how i used to but at de point of time when im gonna start, i will always hesitate. i wanna tell her how much i missed her for tis past 6 months n tt im still loving her lyk how i used before. hais. further more de results tt r coming out tml. how m i gonna explain to my parents?? tell dem i missed my paper? i absented myself?? my life is so miserable. i chose de wrong path if nt i wun b in tis state nw instead i will b happily receving my results n mayb even going to a poly. when will i feel betta?? when will all tis guilt n misery go away n leave me alone?? life is full of ups n downs but y my recent life onli has downs n not ups?? **imissushoppingpiggy!!!!!!!!!!!!!* ))))" =.
