went for paper today. stayed up the whole nite to study. but luckily i wasnt late. instead it was sebas who was late. went to dhoby ghuat's MDIS as paper was dere this afternoon. was kinda of easy. but i couldnt fucking balance the balance sheet when i onli just read it awhile before de paper. fuck. got dam frustrated n pissed after de paper scared fail sia=.=.. went to parklane after de paper had a match of dota wif the rest n followed by pool. played till around 7 n went over to PS as SK said he wanted to go get something walked around n went home after that. meeting up with yong again. hais. what is de real meaning of life?? i ask.
Everyday i see couples all around me. holding their hands tightly, sharing their happy moments together. i always wonder when is it for me to have this feeling again getting through life wif someone whom i love n loves me back. a setback after another is coming right at me. im losing my confidence day by day.
** I face the world with a smile, no one knows what is hid inside. They see only happiness, they cant see the tears I've cried. When I am alone I hurt, because here I do it well. In front of all the watchful eyes my heaven turns to hell. The judge and jury awaits me, everyone has a say. In a life that hangs suspended for yet another day. Who are they to judge if what I have done is right or wrong? I don't know how to find the strength I thought I had. If only I could play tough it wouldn't be so bad. They say that life goes on and someday I'll smile again. But, how do they know my pain without being where I've been? I've traveled so far from home, and can't find my way back. Somewhere along the way I must have jumped the track. *
